Meng Jinsheng,trainer at the Rehabilitation Center and former drug addict |
'Students' rules'
During his three months at the center, Hu led a peaceful life, discussing his problem with the psychiatrists and reflecting on his turbulent seven years.
"As time passes, I realize how I lived my life the wrong way and gradually I came round to forgiving my parents, I realized it wasn't their fault. But I still hate those gangster friends who seduced me into using dope."
Zhao Min, vice-president of Shanghai Mental Health Center , said: "The problems of dealing with opiate addiction are all psychological. Unless the damage caused by drugs has already affected the nervous system, all drug addicts should undergo psychological therapy."
Every afternoon, the center's patients are required to recite the Di Zi Gui, or "students' rules", in classical Chinese. The text, written by Li Yuxiu, a famous scholar and educator during the Qing Dynasty (1644-1911), aims to teach people "how to become moral human beings".
When he sat quietly, Hu sometimes had a twitch in his temple and he lowered his eyes when bad memories returned. But he became animated when he spoke of the things he has learned at the center. "Now I know how to clean the floor," he said with a proud smile. "I know that's normal for most people, but I never did it before I came to the center."
He said he still dreams of achieving something meaningful. "Maybe I can learn some computer skills at a university, like some of my high school classmates," he said.
The future, however, may not be as bright as he hopes. The international relapse rate among drug addicts is around 95 percent, meaning very few quit completely.
"No one can survive solely by making one decision," said Meng Jinsheng, a 53-year-old volunteer trainer in the center, who was a drug user a decade ago. "They must also find something meaningful to replace the sensations they got by taking drugs."
Hu said the first thing he wanted to do when he left the center was to go home and see his mother, who is still in the hospital.
"I have more confidence now," he said, smiling.
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